I saw this picture and it reminded me of....

 

 ...when I first started doing art. about 3 years ago. The very first art piece I had in my soul was the complete circle of life.

It started with the very core. I think i painted a dot and split in half. It turned into an apple, which turned into a butterfly, a panda and other signs of reflections.

It kept growing in size and and I kept washing it when the paint got too thick and I kep painting over it and adding to it, until basically I had nothing to show, but i had unravelled the complete picture.

 

In the end it basically turned into a yin yang. It had a female mermaid on the right circled around half of the moon and on the right was a boy leaning on the moon.

 

I never actually got to keep a final product, but it was something I had to paint and i wouldnt give up until I had seen the complete picture.

 

I had Ariel the Angel around me at that time. She was an important part of my core. She defined my soul which was a beautiful angel lost in light, and looking for her one and only love.

 

Anyway, I must try and paint it one day.

My dad got diagnosed with cancer yesterday, so Im sad but im o.k because I know that mum and dad will be happy together for a lot longer. We havent been told of the extent yet.

 

Here it gets too hard for most people to accept... but

 

Now that i have sacrficed my life for the life of my mother and father, the opporutnities for amazing satisfcation in life are arising. i went from zilch to the possibility of great amazing wealth and respect.

 

Except I cant deal with it, cos I dont need to take make another decision. It was a final sacrifice of life. I cant say .. oh no I changed my mind now that the earth has finally made it easier for me.

 

Final sacrifice means I never  get to do it ever again and never ever do i get to see the earth again. I die for the Mother and the Father.

 

Hence, the sudden importance of all the things im meant to see, falling into my hands.  

I know that I am meant to see the light codes, the answers that davinci never revealed with maybe more. And low and behold, I find an original davinci with secrets on it. :) its amazing how the earth works. If it has to go to one person, it will definitely at least end up being found by her ie me.

 

 

I am going through the most tragic and most absolutely unbelievable things.

 

I just found an original Davinci. Its a world map painted on a mirror. Its not mine, its my friends and he doesnt believe  in me or anything I say.

 

I was so disappointed and absolutely shocked at his reaction to my statement... its worth millions and I need it as i'm the only one who will be able to read the code.

 

And it is on this day November 5 that I was supposedly meant to die. Im waiting and i wont be suprised if I do.

 

I maybe crazy to some but Im  serious as all fuck!

 

So, get ready world for the painting that was done on a mirror, hence ........ there is no mistake about it being a Davinci.

 

We had a big fight and I walked out as he doesnt know who I am on this earth.

 

And it offends me.

Yesterday I recieved some new names in light.

I was actually at the most significant level of naming where you dont know your name and you are a symbol.

I was actually told at that point that Prince is the only other symbol on earth :). wow.

I am the cross on the symbol. 

 I am the Cross and the symbol of life.

I guess if I was in a movie for superleague people, like Wanted, I'd be nicknamed Cross :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My dad had to have 2 litres of fluid on his lungs drained and they said he may have asbestosis. Been very worried.

 

I did a distant healing on my dad on Thursday night and I was concerned. So I had to do a few things in the light to change what may happen. I call in creation.

 

I went into light yesterday and did a final sacrifice. Its something I needed and wanted to do.

 

Today I did a physical healiing on my Dad and I think he'll be fine. I think its just his right kidney.

 

I did a very powerful symbol on his kidney which i knew was from the universe as it kind of symbolised the world plus all its components and everything now is done.

 

I am happy now.

 

I am complete.

 

I love you dad (Joseph) and mum (Judith)

 

xx

Amen

I've decided that each time I 'release' a soul song, I need to at least write the title down. Its hard to remember soul songs. They kind of just come from nowhere when you are in the light of love. So i'm composing a list and will add to it as i remember more. I cant remember the very first soul song that came from me. It was a swan song. It had seven verses. I need to go back through my blogs and see if I wrote about it.

 

 

   

 

There is one emo pic that needs to be either done or found.
I had some inspiration from the 'mothership' to draw it once. And I kind of drew it. But not good enough to show.

It was a little emo who had a cute/ugly fish in his hand. I think the first part of it was.. they went fishing and found an ugly fish. They said 'can we keep him?'.

Then they put it in a bowl. But the emo says "The fish was cold so I got the fish out of the water" and he hugs it. There is no water in the bowl.

Then the fishy nearly dies, and one emo is sad, so the other emo says, "ill cry you a pool of tears to save the fishy".

And the emo has tears rolling down his face.

 

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hmmm that just got me thinking... there is another little emo cartoon that has to be done with a little emo with lots of coloured friendship bracelets on his little arms.

One emo says to the other emo who is smiling and holding his arms up "how many friendship bracelets have you got now". And the emo says 14. Then the other emo says, 'how many friends have you got'. And the emo say's 'one'. and hugs the other emo.

 

I decided that if i was a school girl and hamish was in my class I would have a crush on him. :) because he is cute and funny.

  

 <--- see, cute and funny.

 

 

my diamonte eyes.

 

im about to pull them off too.  :(

 

I wore this mask to a masquerade party tonight. I like it.

It makes me feel angel.

I even wore diamontes along my eyelids.

Thought i'd take a pic before pulling apart five hours worth of getting ready effort on a hot day.

 

 

"Here I stand. The light of the world. I feel grand."

 

Yesterday i had a beautiful song come into me. And it was almost like a swan song. I just knew the words and new the tune. i needed to be at the piano at the time but i couldnt and it was hard to let the song come out of me at first as i was around other people.  But it came out in the car driving home.

 

it was called Plight of the Arthurians. I sang it in a gaelic or celtic type style of song.

 

The words were beautiful and it was about standing with each other, and by my side. Riding with Knights. etc. It was about being together and loyalty. Pride. And fighting for each other.

 

The chorus had the words.....'Give me your song, Plights of the Arthrurians' in it.

 

I looked up was Plight actually means. And it said -  to make a promise of marriage.

I was in a bit of distress at thet time I received the song and it lifted me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is one of my favourite movies. My friend said to me... you will really relate to this movie. I watched it and I did. I loved it.

Not many people would be told that .. I think.

 

 

 

Schapelle Corby has gone insane and will not survive her 20-year sentence unless she is moved out of Bali's Kerobokan jail, a top Australian psychiatrist has warned.

Associate Professor Jonathan Phillips, who is believed to have been employed by the Corby family, visited Corby in prison earlier this month and says the former beauty student is "hanging on by a thread".

"She is lost in her own bewildering world where fantasy, hallucinations and bizarre ideas dominate her mind," Dr Phillips told New Idea magazine.

Tormented ... Schapelle Corby last year. Photo: AFP

Dr Phillips, former president of the Royal Australian and New Zealand College of Psychiatrists, says the 32-year-old will continue to deteriorate unless she is moved.

"Even if Schapelle got really good medical treatment in jail the place itself would destroy her, given her now precarious condition," he said.

"I really fear for her.

"I know from experience that her illness will not get any better in the current situation, and will probably worsen with the risk of calamity.

"Whether she's innocent or guilty, her needs are medical."

Dr Phillips says the best option would be to have Corby transferred as a prisoner to Australia and treated in a secure hospital setting.

Failing that, she should go to a psychiatric facility in Bali, he said.

Dr Phillips says he is certain Corby's condition is genuine.

"Let me make it clear, I have been a psychiatrist for many years and I approach my work with proper clinical scepticism.

"She is not putting this on.

"She is in the deepest of pain and her personal world is coming apart.

"Her mind is now playing dreadful tricks on her.

"She can get no peace because she is sure she is being filmed at all times for bizarre purposes.

"She sees highly personalised and critical messages in books, on television and in videos, and she is sure that others are conspiring to end her life.

"She is in huge trouble."

Dr Phillips said he was appalled that other prisoners took responsibility for giving Corby her medication.

"I've never known a similar situation before and the things that might go wrong are beyond reckoning."

The Corby family will send Dr Phillips' 20-page report to Prime Minister Kevin Rudd and other political leaders in the hope it may pressure them to press for Corby's transfer.

Sister Mercedes said she was not surprised by the report.

"It's really, really sad to see it all written down in black and white," she told the magazine.

"It makes me feel helpless.

"We have to get her out of prison to a place where she can be properly looked after."

Corby's sister Mercedes has told a local news outlet in Bali a psychiatrist had been treating the 32-year-old since she tried to scale a water tower inside Kerokoban jail earlier this month.

News and travelwebsite Balebali.com said prison authorities had to coax Corby down to safety recently.

In June, she spent several days in an Indonesian hospital for treatment for depression after she reportedly claimed people were trying to spy on her through holes in the ceiling of her prison cell.

"We are trying to get her better. Every day is difficult and she is not good," Mercedes Corby told the website.

Last week, Corby had four months shaved off her 20-year jail term as part of Indonesia's Independence Day celebrations.

Corby, 32, was sentenced to 20 years' jail after she was caught at Bali's airport in October 2004 with 4.1 kilograms of marijuana in her boogie board bag.

She was last week given a four-month sentence cut as part of Indonesian Independence Day celebrations.