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April 27 healing cancerI forgot to mention about my cancer healing patient. News is really good.
She got her results of her MRI and she has improved. The 3 tumors are now static and the doctors are putting her back on chemo for 21 days
I went to see her on Saturday for her 2nd healing before the chemo starts and she looks so healthy now.
She is up walking and she is smiling and its amazing.
Only 3 weeks ago, the doctors had said that they were not going to give her any more treatment.
She looked so sick and so sad when I first saw her.
Straight after her first healing she instantly improved. And her mind was clear and focussed. Her headaches stopped.
She's such a beautiful lady. Her name is Dammi.
I'm proud to be an angel who can give my light to people with cancer.
Lots of Angel Love.
Olijah THE STORY OF NATHAN BEARI WENT TO A PARTY AND FOUND A BEAR HIDING ON THE FLOOR.
I SAT HIM ON A CHAIR AND SAID WHAT SHOULD I NAME YOU.
"NATHAN" I said. A boy called Clint, said, "Definitely Nathan".
I ADOPTED NATHAN BEAR AND TOOK HIM HOME.
 NATHAN BEAR ON HIS WAY HOME FROM THE PARTY
 Olly said "HI NATHAN" awww. so cute.
Nathan keeping me company at my computer :) I love him so much. He's so cute. He's like Harley my cat that is never with me anymore! he's always outside playing or with my Mum :( i still love him. Both Nathan and Harley are beautiful. Olly up there is alright too. Hey Ol :) x She's Gold - a poem or a song i wrote a while agoShe is Gold
well you have the sexiest eyes that i ever saw
a million pieces of her soul come crashing in my shore she gives me nothing you can see or hold she give me nothing, but she gave me gold i define her as the essence of the earth i saw in you
i am deciding if the universe is the collection of us two i void the earth for i have sun i have felt you and i need you, she's the only one all the eyes have shone into my soul
she's gone to see the universe she's all i have, she's gold i dont deserve you, youre an angel on earth i feel like youre an angel chosen from birth April 24 Love Song - I love this song. Its so uplifting. It describes my heart.LOVE SONG We were both young when I first saw you See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns Little did I know And I said So I sneak out to the garden to see you And I said Romeo save me - they’re tryin’ to tell me how to feel Oh And I said He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said Oh, oh April 20 jill is going down hillI've been really good with my life lately. But in the past week, I've taken a dive.
I'm stressed about money. I hate it.
I'm tired and i cant focus.
I spent the whole weekend asleep in bed.
I got sad on Friday night, and I dont have any support over what happened as I cant tell anybody.
I dont know why I even bother trying to amend my life, for as soon as I get anywhere, it goes back down.
I am falling into depression again.
I woke up last night during my sleep and my heart was racing. I thought... what day is it? what time is it? do i have to go to work? and thats basically all i ever think.
Drink for Angels - to help us through the day
I found this drink. Its really nice and as it says on the can "puts the sparkle back in your eye". Its blessed with a heavenly hit of Taurine and Guarana. Taurine has been proved effective in preventing liver disease in humans. It tastes like Red Bull, and is sugar free. Its really yum. I think they have a devil one for the boys :) who at the moment, to me, are all devils in disguise. April 18 seeing my heart in song is important to meI drive my heart through every musician on the face if this earth.
For I am not a musician.
And I like to see my heart in song.
THE UNPUBLISHED THOUGHT OF THE DAY,one day we will all love each other and be good about it. UNPUBLISHED COLLECTION: absolute rambles
and its all the same i dont like my life, its magical will you not let me name you as a knife i havent loved anyone like you where is my father when ineed himin my life i thought a man would place me its so curious,, and im curious
I will not marry you now i just want to know who you are i just want to kiss you i wont let you love me i just like to be in like with you i caught you in the morning if you never knew the words i'm in love with my own life where all the people are go getters i just want to be in love with myself im freakin out my friends with silence i dont want to place my life inyou i'm too hard to be with, and im jealous and i joke when only i am alone i dont talk much in mornings i just dont want to be in love with you i leave you with nothing
UNPUBLISHED COLLECTION: When I was WindowI want a beautiful place
I want a man who says I have a beautiful face i want to lead myself into where i need to be I want to run When i was a window
when i was a window I would have let all the sunlight shine through me to you when i was open
when i was a window open I let the wind blow through and then the breeze was on you If you were my window
would you let me have all the things that i threw to you like a letter, a poem, a wake up in morning, with a hit from an old school shoe the window wasnt open when i was there with you and it was a window that i wouldnt let you through if i was the window that wasnt open then it would be too hard to do UNPUBLISHED COLLECTION: Consider This.I wrote this around Easter.
CONSIDER THIS
The earth is a violent place and there is nothing we can do about it
do you realise that we are saving our lives when i am here now
we are here will you will a fire will you hear where are all the signs of all the saints where are the saints why have never taken my baby hand
did you never see this is where you could see could you call in time and tell me that i am a lamb tell you on the world wide see will you let me hold your hand in high
will you let me seal you with you sil will i love you more than i can see will you fall for me when you never knew that you were my guide
did you consider heaven, could you consider this calling into hearts of love in time will you love me with your heart calling all the worlds i held inside
to you consider this to be saving a day will you call into my heart in time will you live a life with me' Consider this UNPUBLISHED COLLECTION - my easter note.DUMB
the art of me is to write something unusual for easter. But this time, i dont really feel like writing anything about you.
i feel like writing something about me.
I dont like being here. i dont like having to stay and soldier on i dont like having to fight and struggle all the time i dont like having to wake up in the morning and go to work where I dont get enough to even make a fair living. I cant based on my accumulated debt that I suddenly incurred when I got sick i dont like being in love with anybody anymore for I am over it. I dont want to be in the usual love light that married men and women come into. i get over it really quickly when i can see the usual side of men. I wont get upset with my life, for I cant see the point and if i cure cancer, will anybody want to know? UNPUBLSHED COLLECTION.. a song called WAIT.. i sung it,but it doesnt read well.Wait, stay. Stole your life.
Wait, pay, stay out of strife. Will, wait, what are you undecided for wall, will give out, when you can find more. Chain are broken, and it get my gate
waking up all the universals souls, we're late trailing cancellations, trailing my score, fill out wearing my hair up on the world that has my doubt. Danger is in the air today Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey hey. Hey, where are you . i'm sitting here waiting for you. wait, wait, stay, stay man, im silent
wait, wait, stay man, wake up, non violent. wait, call the church girl for she's sitting on the steps to say tear on my cheek, waiting and i'm undecided today. Wait wait for the guy who is holding his gun
wait wait for hte man thats never having any fun do you ever see the seasons in all four or seasons that become one, when you see the sun of the wake up call. Wait wait for the undecided light
and wait wait for the nin time light and night will take us outside with the change of all seasons walk, wild, walk when then and now, now or nin i'm told reasons. wait wait wait, wait for gold. wait wait wait, wait, now or nin im gold. the unpublished collection - a sexy rap songtights are on
waist is a long one try standing up straight when you got the hold on tease and touch
aint teachin me much i think her face, such a sexual face is a lush oh she moves with her waist
Sittin in my place if I move a little slowly will you let me caress & taste oh your lips, yeah kissin her hips
i move a little lower and the moneys' on the ritz but the money dont matter cos she's got the hips. yeah, kissin her hips.
what happened to all my blogging?i dont see the point in me writing anything lately. I stopped blogging like i use to.
I guess I dont like people seeing what I'm up to.
For it worries some people.
I dont like to write everything about myself anymore as I know that my family know of my blog and workmates can see it.
And although I dont need to hide anything, I guess I dont like them making me feel like i do.
So, I stopped blogging as it concerns people around me.
Today, I"m disturbed as I lost my trust in men of all shapes and sizes.
I dont really give a fuck!
I dont care.
I dont need you.
I dont like you.
i dont want you.
i dont really even want to be here.
and that is my subconscious letting me know how i really feel.
and i guess that is how I am now.
all the other stuff I have written over the last few weeks is stored in notes that are too weird to put up AND DONT MAKE ANY SENSE.
or i could just cut and paste THEM ALL below OR ABOVE : I will.
BELIEVING IN LIFE
beautiful places and beautiful faces
they all stand out when the crowd doesnt say much at all the best people they dont feel like they are special And the worst ones, they feel like they are For ever woman and every man
theres another kid staring at the ones who are wearing something that makes them laugh or smile theyre all basically the same
its just that some have known name they just dont even think about the distant between each other sometimes people will believe in life
then nothing seems to matter for everything they have needed to say has been said its just a chance you take in life
sometimes you will do everything you can to get to the place you need to go to but at the end, there will be nothing for you but a place filled with lots of faces YOu just gotta believe in what you know
and if you dont believe in yourself then you wont know anything you wont even know why you are on the earth to start with.
take it from me.
i am made to believe in life. for i am over the life that I had. And I can support you with your life, but my life is over. I am gold. I deserve it and I am a gift from God. I will treat you as my friend. I will leave you as the people I had in my life. I will chain myself to the shore of love. And I will always remain in the nautical line of light. I dont want to not believe in the beautiful world i am in.
I just cant believethat I am here. Chosen and in silence. I guess i need to change my life to suit my light. I give to you my soul. I leave life love.
April 15 Easter writings... will come. just one for now.I missed the Easter blog and i have some weird writings to put up but i have to wait.
Unfortuantely I was unable to take notes and let experience what was going through me on Saturday especially as I was driving and around people. I kind of had to put alid on it. I wrote a few things on Monday night.
an example of what i wrote. without sounding like im saying I'm Jesus. I was just in his heart. I could let him live through me.
I am in Jesus's heart.
I am Jesus. I am allowed to say that. I am a slave to the life of the earth. I am nearing the end of my life.
i am breaking my hands. I ama lighter for this earth and its a nice heart for me to see
I am allowing the cross and the cuffs to break my bones i am trying to let myself leave I am allowing myself to bleed. I am trying to sleep. Im embarassed by my soiled loth cloin I have been placed on the earth for a reason. my reason is now or nin. ipray for my father in heaven i pray for the light of my mother I am praying for my soul I |
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