While I'm thinking of it, there was a majestical heart taken to my soul on 22 October. Kings, queens, knights and the collection of all things in the major of light are ine the spotlight this month.

 

The crown that was sitting on the head of the person who should have never taken it in the first place was removed and given to the owner who rightfully placed it where she did.. on the head of the soul who shall be in her light forever. The King, and in this earth, the master of her heart.

 

.....so, if anybody thinks perhaps they received a crown on the day of 22 Oct, please contact me...as I have long awaited your arrival. :)

 

you shoul look something like this...     

 

 

 

The following is my attempt to unravel the mystery of...

 

 

I'll write the answer in parts and perhaps combine it into one writing at the end...

when I find the answer.

 

its hard to write it so that people understand what I'm trying to get at.

Its normally much easier if I write it in angel style - which doens't mean anything to most.

So I have to simplify it into words that we can relate to.... and this is my challenge.

To be normal :)

 

anyway, this is just a preview of what I am writing..

 

If I could turn my heart into an ocean

I'd be sitting at the shore

Washing it with my light

Pushing it out and pulling it in

Sighing with each push

Breathing in with each pull

This is the sound of my heart - 0l

The sound of the ocean shore

shhhhh aaahhhh oliaer

The place where my heart sits.

 

... to be continued.. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

....the cover of my Diary....

i designed it at 2am using paintbrush on my sisters computer

I will get my own computer one day  :)

its all original except for the butterfly which I cut and pasted.

The first entry of my dieary is...the story of mary magdalene. I'm still writing it.

May take a while as my impulse to write it comes in spurts and its more a summary at this point.

I guess its the prelude?

The story is amazing - and I found out why whe was a hore!

She was a hore, but not in the sale of sex type way..

much more interesting.. beautiful love story.

..told through the eyes of Olijah.

and the words of the angel in Ol.

inspired by my first and only day at kindergarten. The first time I tied a shoelace on my own. It was the shoe of a boy who I made friends with that day.

Anyway, we keep bumping into each other in life, and not realising it. We've crossed paths on a number of occasions which I have realised now. Pity I didn't realise when he asked me if I was the girl who wrote him a letter on that day at kindy. I didn't remember until later down the track. He kept it and still has it 20 something years later. I dont know if he knows it was me - the girl he loved from 4 until he was 7 or 10 years old I think. Anyway, it was his birthday this week, so I painted this for him. I'll probably never give it to him though. I hope I got the shoe colours right.

 

 

does anybody want to teach me how to use the foot pedal of my piano. My piano teacher didn't teach me. Pretty crap he was... (lidl giggles there) but i loved him regardless... he'll be so upset if he reads this.

Sometimes I wish that a knight would rescue me on his horse.

The horse of light is named Candeda.. she's a heavenly horse... maybe my next prince will be an angel.

 

Time for another tell  in the story of  my life:

The last time I got rescued by a knight was about 6 years ago. I got abused outside a bar by my boyfriend and the new knight (my ex fiance) put me on the back of his bike and took me home.. I never left... until we parted 2 years later. He's the one I really loved.

 

... today I wish that a heavenly knight would rescue me ...sooner rather than later...

and rescue me from losing faith in all men.

 

 

Does anybody have any opinions about whether I should sell the diamond engagement ring that was given to me by my ex fiance. He will probably be the only person in my life that I get to the point of engagement with. I need the money. It means a lot to me, but if I was to ever get a new boyfriend (which I very much doubt as I'm in my own way - a nun - who doesn't hold much trust in men at all at this point) then I would never wear it. Some people think that you should get rid of everything to do with the person. But I did love him very much and I will always hold that part in my heart... he was my knight at the time. It just ended up a sad day at the end.

I loved the ring so much when I got it and I still think its really pretty.

I feel really sorry for Britney Spears.. I hear she is getting her children taken off her tomorrow. I think its terrible. She would be having a hard enough time as it is without having to withstand the pain of having her babies taken from her. is she really unfit or is it just that he has a better lawyer and less media attention?

love goes out to her.