The other night before my brain bubble incident, I discovered a new character within me. Im going to call him Peter the Boris Lover.

Its a scottish guy who talks about Boris Yeltzen (that how you spell it?)  and it was so funny kind of. Its like an old scottish guy that abuses people for not liking
Boris Yeltzen enough and he relates everything to Boris Yeltzen, eg. he'll say something like "ya think you can kick the Boris down, do ya... 'ya Boris beater'. And just silly simple things, but funny. Thats what I do before I have my brain turmoil. I need to be thrown on a stage in a comedy act or sing songs as  I can usually sing really well and they just flow out of me. I rise into the light. My light is a great one. Full of laughs and love and song and dance and wisdom and words of woes that go out to the people in theatre style teachings or art expression or even rap.

I actually have a lot of fun until it starts hurting.

love gives me life

do you want to be a leaf on my tree
as all the other leaves have fallen
I have laid with each one
Now there is just me
Do you want to be a leaf on my tree?

Im basically destroying my life, my heart and my brain because nobody will believe in me.

today I almost died again in another brain trauma. Kind of felt like my brain was boiling or bubbling with lots tick sounds as it occurs. Its so obvious that I have enchiphalitis with the reoccurrences that in a minotity of cases happen...
Mine are mainly due to the mites and ticks I gained during the first incident of the brain swelling. Mayb they are trapped between the membrane - got in while the swell was good and never got out! Who knows without a brain scan!

I thought I was better, but I had a really bad one today and it lasted about 5 hours of sheer hell. I was worried even. I was on my own againa So that people dont get to experience my lunatic theatre that i put on beforehand. ... which brings me to..

FACT:
Agitated and aggressive behaviour is not uncommon during the acute phase of Encephalitis and after. This may occur because the patient is neurologically agitated due to the swelling and inflammation in the brain. As the patient begins to recover, they may enter a phase called post-traumatic amnesia (PTA) and behave extremely out of character, becoming aggressive, uncooperative or violent.

I become more rude and more funny and more like a lunatic peforming artist on stage. I didn't realise, but when at the doctor last week, I was in pre brain moosh stage and I told the doctor the things that were in my head at that point.. eg. I dont really want the help of doctors anymore as I was left to die and had to get over it on my own. I really just would like a medical certificate a prescription renewed.

The doctor instead of recoginising the pre stage symptoms, sends me to a psychiatrist and I tell her about my little peformances before an 'incident' so get labelled schizophrenic! and get told to see a psychiatrist rather than a brain scanner or a phamaracist for medicine.


I went to see the same stupid doctor that didnt even check my ears when I saw her and who sent me to a month waitiing list doctor for epilepsy! (preconception based on the bith control pill that I told her I no longer took)!. This time, I tell her I've almost died several times. Instead of reducing my chances of death from 80% to 10 or 30% like she could have if she had seen it at the start, she this time wants to send me to a psychiatrist. Maybe I am insane now thanks to the continuous brain bleeds and blood clots and aneurisms that follow. 

FACT:

Because Encephalitis may make a person very ill, this may cause immobility and as such they may be at risk of a Deep Vein Thrombosis (DVT). The nursing staff may suggest that the patient wears anti-embolism stockings to reduce this risk.

I GET THE ATTITUDE ...  FIRST ITS MENINGITIS AND THEN BUBBLES AND ANEURYSM.. THEN TICKS IN YOUR HEAD! you lunatic.  you must be imagining it. 

FACT IS THAT IT ONLY STARTED HAPPENING SINCE I HAD A VIRUS AND VOMITED 50 TIMES AND NEARLY DIED DURING THE PROCESS OF RELEASING JUST ABOUT EVERY TOXIN IN MY BODY VIA MY HEAD, MY NOSE, MY MOUTH. TOXIC SHOCK! SWELLING OF MY MEMBRANE. MY CAT JUMPED ON MY BED AND I GRABBED A TICK OF HIM AND ANOTHER JUMPED ON ME AND WENT INTO MY HEAD!
i know its sounds like it would have to be real bad luck, but that is my story for the past year. Tragedy after tragedy.

She wouldn't conside a prescription for my stomach problem which caused me mental strain as its uncomfortable and is due to a bacterial infection. I need medicine for it. buscopan aint workin for me!  She told me to see the psychiatrist and was rude to me in the waiting room because she forgot to do the prescription that had been asked for in the consultation. She said, 'look I cant I have other patients'.and then gave me a different pill! even though I told her it was the only one that worked for  me and that I had tried several others. I thought i should take the pill again because maybe it may inspire me to 'have sex!' ha. and actually take a man into my life who may make me happy! I bet the new pill is known to make you fat. Cos no joke, she was out to make my life worse than better.

the doctor seriously did what all people do to me - put their their inadequacies on me! and then write me off because I was wearing red shoes and that must indicate i'm a lunatic. Never mind the actual major head pain and tick sounds that happen when whatever passes through my head... or now, the feeling of brain boil. I'd say it could be a shingle in amongs the mess of my blood filled brain! can you give me something for that.. .naaa didn't think so. I'll wait anther 2months to see a mental head doctor and not a healthy body doctor.

BELIEVE IN ME

• I NEED A DOCTOR WHO WILL BELIEVE IN ME!
• I DONT LIE, I DONT IMAGINE THINGS. THE PROOF IS THERE. JUST LISTEN TO ME WITHOUT JUDGING ME BY MY APPEARANCE OR MY MENTAL APTITUDE TO DEAL WITH IT!
• I JUST NEED A DOCTOR WHO IS SINCERE AND GENUINE AND WANTS TO LISTEN TO THE SYMPTOMS WITHOUT TELLING ME THAT I NEED A PSYCHIATRIST.
• I GET TOLD THAT BECAUSE I USUALLY TELL THE DOCTOR THAT 'OK... I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH MY INTENSTINES/BOWEL SINCE THE SHIZO STALKER DRUGGED ME AND MOLETSTED ME AND STUCK BUGS UP MY ASS! NO, THE COPS HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING ABOUT IT AS I COULN'T BARE TO GO GET EXAMINED AS I COULDNT HANDLE KNOWING AND ACCEPTING AT THAT POINT.. IT WASN'T LONG AFTER SOMEBODY TRIED TO MURDER ME IN THE STREET!
• BUT I'M O.K WITH ALL OF THAT NOW, IM JUST TELLING YOU THAT I'VE HAD PROBLEMS WITH MY STOMACH SINCE THEN.
• I REALLY NEED MEDICATION TO FIX MY DELAPITATING ILLNESSES.
• WE CAN DEAL WITH MY HEAD LATER if you need to. I'VE ALREADY DEALT WITH IT.

doctor doctor its an emergency.... i'm about to break my bubble

• MY BODY IS REALLY VITAL AT THIS POINT. i need it to work, so I can survive. So I can be on earth! Still got a job to do here. Cant go yet. I really need a body.
  
• please dont just misjudge my factual way of thinking and dont put me IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL BED to die WITH a post mental problem such as CANCER grown from my stress of fighting to survive and my SEVERE DISAPPOINTMENT IN THE professionals of the WORLD IN RECOGNISING the things they should have read in their text books at university. dont punish me because you get offended when I tell you that you didn't check my ears for ticks when I saw you right after it happened and I had a tick or two in there. Dont threaten me. Like you did.  I even  saved one in glad rap that came from my mouth. Guess its linked to the ear. but I chucked it thinking I would never return to a doctor!

in response to my horror story hell ride that I've managed to not boil my blood over.. I'd like a professional to say.
gee,  Olijah has done very well mentally and deserves to be commended. Very strong to do it all on her own and heal herself. Really she should be dead or at least retarded.

Once the doctors fix the brain hemorrhages and the blood poisons from the mite tick infestation, plus  drain the blood that never got drained! (had to get a spirutual healer to do it) , she should be good as gold! Unusual case she was. Hard to believe really.

and that would come from a life coach - which out of counsellors and psychiatrists and whoever else, would actually help me. And help me improve my future. As I've lost the will to live due to the ones that are there to help and dont even try to understand what will help.

I need to get back all the things I lost. I've worked hard all my life to end up with nothing! I still have my sanity. I just speak the truth, and be polite to those who stand in front of me.  

I need a life coach to inspire me to continue the walk on earth! so dont tell me I need a shrink. I dealt with it. Dont hold me back and cover old ground. I am over my hurt. I am ready to move on to the best parts... the parts that I deserve. As I am good. Always.

I spent lots of hours and lots of money to look good to sit in my living room alone. Photo shoot to help a mate got cancelled by him this time. Cheers to another effort for nothing. The usual story. Glad i left my nails for last cos i think i may just paint a picture instead.

Was my alias name b4 i became Olijah J Lee. So it works. I guess if andy lee marries me (over megan! Yeah right) it still works... Just bein silly. Leath calls me Mi Lady. Im also Lady Li in light. Name changes are an integral part of our life. But we always remain true to one soul name. I know mine. I wonder if other people know theirs.

I had a dream that andy lee and i went on a date. It was so real. I felt like i really liked him and he seemed the same. It was so real and i was so disappointed when i woke up. I was worried that megan would be upset. During the dream i remember hamish teasing him over sounding south african. It was a beautiful feel good dream.

Theres a man outside of my window. Should i let him come in. Should i sell him my love. Or should i sell myself in sin. Should i take a man who doesnt say. My god, its open another day. My window is open if you would like to come in. A man made in paris in a suit with a grin. And a hand that holds a light diamond ring.

Ive decided that i would love to live in a church and one day i shall. It will be an old cathedral type place with lovely windows and it will be mine and yours. Id love to live there with you and be happy. We'll sing every day and play piano and be in love. It will be a song. I love you always and foreve. Ol x

MY PAINTING SOLD!

And yes i did wear white mits. White beanie. And a white fluffy coat. And yes u did tap me on the head at the George concert. And yes. I heard the verve today. Long live the ledge in us! Amen

im not going to write anything on core as its too close to my heart and people just dont understand that I am actually real. I'm tired of having to feel that I have to convince people of things. I know that what I say is rarely not the case. i dont have opinions. I have the right answers. And to release my prophecy's, would make me nervous that it could ruin my mind and them being fulfilled. My mind can sometimes change the course of events. I'm sure other people can relate to that.

anyway...

LONG LIVE SEPTEMBER 8
ITS A SPECIAL DAY
FOR THE LIGHT SOULS
I SEAL THIS DAY WITH A KISS...

i gotta go to sleep now. my day was a time warp in lights of love and ... loathe.. i gotta do the loathe. Its the part where I usually just sit and speak unusually .. I usually do rap to get it all out and sing ballads that just come from within. I annoy myself at times, but also have a great time. The loathe light is the draining one but I have  to purify the soul in case I have to go. Cant go if i'm harbouring any negative emotions.

i also found something else out.. Paris Magic. a term i had in my head. I wasn't sure of the meaning. But its part of the song of Heath. Monet Mo song. the best version had a line about Mary Moet and Paris Magic.

Also, there is another little secret that I am too tired to find out about but I need to write while its in my head and before I forget. The Mona Lisa has an original artwork underneath it... I gather this is already known? And if not, then I know what it looks like. And I'm not going to tell anybody. Because money, mona, mo. Mona Lisa knew that she was a lady of light and had no hesitation in letting people know. If my light encyclopedia in heaven is correct, she thought she had a very unusual face and asked Davinci to paint her. And thats all I'll ever say.
 

Today was a big day for little Ol me. I had a golden light day today. Heath Ledger was a big part of it.
There are amazing things happening in lights of love and in gold... the rare one.

I also had another bullet in my brain and had another.. well, its time to head off to heaven.. again. I dont mind as Heath is there. He's such a lovely angel. A blue light appeared when I was in trouble and I layed on the floor. I could feel the beautiful energy and it made me so happy. Angel light is so wonderful. Beautiful and pure and just lovely.

Anyway, I may sound crazy, but ive been hangin with Heath Ledger. I hope that statement doesn't cause any pain for the family. It should actually help them to know that he is doing fine and loves the light. He should, its the best one you can be in.

I had a dream about 4 years ago and I got to see the face of the man I was going to marry. All I saw was the head of a knight that took his helmet off and I saw a guy with blonde shoulder length hair and a beautiful smile and eyes. I didn't realise it was Heath at the time, but later on did. I have this feeling that maybe Heath will have a quick reincarnation and if he does it will probably be handled by the man himself - Jesus who perhaps may be coming to earth anyway. Special delivery type work this long weekend. Sunday is blessed.

I sat with a group of people in the light today... hints as to who was there... Andy Lee and Hamish, Da boys I call em. Funny little freakos.. we are all a bit freaky and all long and skinny. A couple of others. Heath of course. Lorenzo (or Mr Cruel).. i had to pull a few strings :). TonyM or Angel Li. And apparently Hugh Jackman has made it. I dont know a lot about and will have to look it up. Basically the light angels on earth had a 30 second meeting in light - just to say a quick hello to Heath. I got lots of really weird writing stuff about the light and moreso related to the core. I'm going to put it on the core sight. I'm a bit reluctant as it secrets that well, will probably go unnoticed anyway. It was a basic lud map for the next 7 months. controversial so I may edit it.

Hugh sings this song about Monet, money, mo. its a nice little song in deed. we did a rap together. Got a new name for our style.. ol didi doll mo. and you need to say mo on the downward end. it sounds cooler.

I also have a new heart in my light ... a lady light angel ... called Moet. Its my favourite champagne too. I like to have moet on my birthday  -  22 July - the day of Mary. I may ask Moet  the champagne people to cash in on the concept of a Mary Moet champagne. One for the ladies. Pink would suit.. I wonder if I could do it instead. I could have it at my funeral...!!! :( i thought I was o.k but i'm not. Heath is helping me live and believing in me. Thankgod for angels.

Ive cried over 2 celebs in my life dying. 1 was princess di and the other heath ledger. I found a black ribbon on my drive way before i found out.. I picked it up as it seem to have just appeared from nowhere. Im sad that such a beautiful angel on earth left at 28 the perfect number. God bless his love and light and soul him to mary for she will let him live through her soul of life and light

I have a photo shoot this weekend to help a guy put together a portfolio of cool sexy shots. Im doing it for free but it costs me to get clothes, hair, shoes etc. Does anybody want to promote a clothing brand etc and get free photography and let me wear the clothes. Im ugly but i scrub up ok in photos :) sometimes. Any spunky guys want to do some shots with me? It will be a fun day at the chapel with olijah!

GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY

So far has been to succeed in everything and then fail in it all. The bad parts are over and now my job is to touch the hearts and hands of those who need. To see the light of love. To lay with the last leaf on the tree of life..my soul light..my perfect partner. To be happy. And to reap the rewards for what ive done so far and the sacrifices ive made by becoming a lady on earth. I deserve a life, i deserve love, i deserve money, and i deserve to be happy.

Who in total owe me $3500 dollars. Do u think you could pay me you fuckin uncaring cheating bunch of liars!