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June 26 jolie momentJune 14 Forever - The last men standingthe following will seem like it doesnt make sense. so the summary of the point is...
I dont want to ever fall in love ever again and I want to be in light forever as I am over it.
now... the lighter part of the reason.....
Iv'e been sitting in the world of light for day and a half and I decided that I'm giving up.
I am lost and I want to go home.
I'm over waiting for my man to save me.
I'm over crying on the inside all the time but not on the outside.
I have done nothing wrong ever in my whole entire existence on Earth.
Yet, i manage to succumb to all the worlds worst.
Last night, some guys who are meant to protect, spiked my drink and I realised it before I got sick.
I had to defend myself and I did a really fuckin good job.
I put my light angel wings on and told them all ... in a way that made them freak out... to never fuck with me ever again.
The main offender said sorry to me. Thats all i needed. I like to do my own police work as mostly, police have never helped me and disregarded me as a strong girl who can deal with it herself... whatever it was that actually happened to her.
Anyway, i feel like:
I want to go home.
I walk away from Earth for the sign is not there.
I am a sign of light.
I saw a sign, and it was 'love on earth, go this way'.
I went that way,
And now I'm not able to find it.
I guess what I am meant to see is that I was in love with my ex fiance and that made me extremely happy. I really needed him to show me love.
But we lost our love for each other as we lost respect for one another.
I then fell in love with the light and found love in the real ones - Jesus and Mary. I discovered the roots of my soul. I saw the light and learnt everything I know from above. I didnt need books or anybody to tell me.
During this part, I saw a man on Earth I decided was my Jesus...
I loved him as I saw him as an angel of light on earth - like myself. rare.
He is not able to see me the way that I see him.
I dont need anything more that this and I dont want to love anybody else.
I have decided that the last men standing have done their work.
I've seen my men and I have cried for them.
Therefore, I am able to say that I love a man on earth - and he is my Jesus. He has my heart and my light and my soul.
And I love him even if he doesnt love me.
I will love him forever.
Right now, i dont even like him. And he doesnt like me.
So, I guess thats the story, i found life, I found love, I found light.
I found fucking nothing! And I'm over being here.
I have light in my soul and light in my heart and I'm a light angel walking on earth to see a certain part..
A love that I denied having in my heart.
I love me.
I love you.
We are love.
And its forever.
As forever love is what we all want to become.
So, I'm here. I am love forever.
I'm Gold.
Believe it or not :)
i Just cant really be arsed with the whole earth.
June 13 sealing lightsThe science of earth and gods creation are sealing lights. Its a big day for angels.\
i will explain more as i learn more. completion of light.i was told i was in the ocmpletion of of light. I m trying to understand what this means. its about going gold and staying gold forever. All the worlds of love are in. We, the light angels of love, and life and light
and dancing with the saints tonight.
We are sending our light into one.
We are giving up on all the worlds except for one .
we are dying to see the light.
The light on one.
The golden light angel.
the child.
we are in the seas of love and light and give up on all the world except for one on this worldly night!
the light of love is opening in my soul. I am in the completion of light.
I am dividing myself into night an day and giving my golden light to a Jesus, hay.
what is coming next?
i dont know.
will i be placed in light for good?
or do I see the soul of light on earth ?
i gather it will all be ok.
June 09 thoughts about my biggest issue - trustMy Biggest Issue is Trust.
I dont trust anybody and its a big problem in my life.
I put it down to old events. I tell people its due to that, but its not. Its due to the reasons as to why we are all on earth. The sins.
Purity is what I want to see.
I
I dont want to be so alone due to my trust issue.
I wish I would see somebody in the light I see myself.
I have trust issues.
I dont want to be lied to and treated like I am worthy of it.
I'm not. I dont deserve it. And if i see it, I lose trust in the person.
Is simiple what i need.
I love you. Love me too.
Be good.
You believe in me. I believe in you.
We will love each other forever.
We dont lie, as we have spent our lifetime purifying our souls and its not worth it.
LESSON: DONT TELL ALL YOUR SECRETS... contains swearing and stuff that is disturbing.sometimes i wonder why i'm not saying much in my blogs anymore
I think maybe its because I have really said everything I need to say at this stage of my life.
I have been there, done that emotion and spoken of every emotion i have ever needed to speak of. I now have decided that there was one thing I missed....
I decided to teach something that is really quiet fucked....
ie.
If you decide to speak of the things that happen to you that cause you pain and hurt, and decide that its for the purpose of making somebody understand why you are upset or not very trusting of others... then make sure you dont say it to those who I define as SICK MOTHERFUCKERS.
Sick ass motherfuckers are: Those who will reoffend based on the concept that the original offender will get the blame.
They use past traumatic events as a weapon to fuck you over and fuck with your mind.
I am saying. DONT TELL people...WHY YOU NO LONGER TRUST ANYBODY.
as some sick ass motherfuckers will put you in the same position as you were in before and do the same wrong to you as what was done before.
They will make you feel like they are not being bad or wrong and that its all because of what happened to you before. They make you feel like they are not doing anything wrong and that its all part of the previous horriffic incident you went through.
when really they arent and that they are just doing the same thing as the other guy did as they know they can get away with the point of... you're still emotionally disturbed and that is why you are thinking this.
eg. if I said to somebody that my ring was taken off me and replaced with a diamond that was nowhere near the same as the original. Then they would do the same thing to me. For I am somebody who will be defined as... do you really think this happened again!
anyway.... I discovered one of the reason why they say....
DONT TELL ALL YOUR SECRETS.
trust one - your own heart. dont give up on anything ...
including the ones who are sick ass motherfuckers....(and that only applies if you are an angel).
May 29 My last Day with DTFWell, today is my last day at work. And I need to get there by 9..
So I should go and be proud of the work that I have done. For I am.
It was a 3mth contract..
I will leave with and be o.k with it as I did what I was assigned to do and I produced good work .
My neighbour Maneka at work bought me a beautiful neclklace star cross . She is the lady who's friend I did the healing on. The one with the brain tumors who is recovering now, instead of not recovering.... which is fantastic.
Out of this job, apart from actual gaining graphic design experience at last, I got more than I have ever would have imagined,
I got to give a lady who was on her last light, healing and hope and life and happiness.
I also got Recognistion and belief in me as an Angel of Light by the those who saw what I'd done.
Oh, and I amet a group of really cool eccentrics who are a bit odd like me and who handled me being odd. No judgement. :)
Loving the Pin up doll culture!now i know what it is. Thanks David :) I'm going to do a poster soon. :) a new one.
David... first conversation we had... about what God is! .. mighty impressed May 27 sleeping by my sisI was alone last night in my house and I was a bit scared. I'm not usually alone. Very rare.
And all night I felt like I had my sister next to me asleep in my bed. My sister is in hospital getting prepared for her radiotherapy as she has cancer.
My cat Harley was really next to me. May 26 feelingsI think another reason why I dont write on my blog anymore is because its my diary and I dont want people to know what I'm all about because I'm over being ridiculed.
But there are heaps of people who do love me and I so thank you for that. x sister healingI havent been blogging much lately as my life has been pretty depressing and non- interesting.
My sister was diagnosed with cancer two weeks or so ago and that has been a big worry.
Update is... I did a healing on her. I havent seen her since the healing but she is o.k.
I scared her as she was lifted into light... literally... she had an outer body experience.
And its scared her.
It didnt happen while I was with her, it happened later after I had left her house.
She actually looked really good and was happy and really positive about getting well after the healing. So i left and went home.
She starts radio and chemo next week.
Hopefully I'll see her again to do another healing before then.
I've been doing distant healings on her in the meantime.
I pray with all my heart and soul that she'll be o.k, healed and cured. Amen. interventionI didnt do the healing today on my sister.
I guess it will be done when its meant to be done.
I didnt really feel like I could do what I needed to anyway, so its probably better that I do it another day. May 12 healing cancer - (and blog 2 venting the dark before)Hi All. I need help. I need you all to pray that I am in Jesus light tomorrow, particularly morning. Ask the Angels to guide me and take me into the golden light.
Pray that I lift to the light of love as I need to heal the cancer that my sister has. She got diagnosed last night.
I Pray that I am able to heal my sister. Amen x
DONT READ THE FOLLOWING IF YOU DONT WANT TO GO...,. OH NO, SHE'S STILL ON ABOUT IT.
this is the part of me that i needed to get out of me if I am able to heal her. I needed to say what i'm thinking, regadless of what it says... or whether I should have said it or not. Its the hurt part of my heart that allows me ... to drink from the spade of love. The spade is the dark part of love.
I need to go into darkness if I am to get to love. Complete a cirlce. Ride the wave of light.
blog 2 - the dark side of light. Drinking from the spade of love.
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